Greetings, explorer!

As you probably know, Colorado decriminalized psychedelics in 2023! Personally, I have been grateful to psilocybin mushrooms since 2006, when one large dose cured me of my existentialist depression and ennui that had haunted me from age 12 to 19. I am now grateful for Ayahuasca and the venom of the Sonoran Toad for its continued spiritual illumination, helping me evolve through these experiences into the best version of myself that I can be. I am grateful for my community of plant medicine explorers who connect me to these rare and beautiful offerings. I hereby pay my blessings forward:

This webpage is for education and connections!

I do not charge a fee for the fruiting body’s of psychedelic substances. That would be against the Colorado Proposition. I do, however, charge an equitably optional fee for the capsules and containers to help cover the cost of growing medium and equipment replenishment! This is not a business, but it does cost money to do what I do, which is to grow mushroom fruit and also to buy exotic botanicals from which powerful, potentially life-changing extractions are made.

You have hereby been informed that I am not a certified mental health practitioner. My profession is being a teacher and caregiver. Any advice you receive from me is as a coach. I am a yogi with a bachelor’s degree in psychology, and my favorite role in life is that of a friend and mother. I listen well, have big empathy, and many helpful resources with which to direct seekers. Finally, I come from a background of intellectual skeptics and respect all beliefs and all resistance to beliefs. 

 

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Know Thyself

You must be warned, first and foremost. Unchecked curiosity has led to dissolved egos that have taken days, weeks, months, or years to build back up. As an homage to those who have gone before us as courageous psychonauts (explorers of psychedelics) please analyze what you seek and then take the correct medicine for its cause.

Be honest:

What do you want to get out of this experience? Do you want to get out of your depression? Take mushrooms or ketamine, with your trusted certified therapist or by yourself in the woods if you so trust yourself. You can also hire sitters who are experienced in psychedelic experiences (like myself) who can help take care of you as you dissolve into an astral puddle. Are you looking to resolve past issues?  MDMA, Ayahuasca, Mushrooms, LSD, and DMT can help with these things, but results may vary and depend very much on various factors such as your readiness, your personality, the nature of your history, your physical condition, and your setting.

If perhaps you just want the colors to get brighter and more interesting, and you seek novelty of highly strange experiences, this cannot always be guaranteed, and is not a good reason to do psychedelics. Go watch Fantasia on a large screen!

As a final word of caution, if you are spiritually or psychedelically curious but your partner is not, beware that you will have less to talk about as your values and interests will diverge. In order to stay on the same page as you evolve, going together on this journey may be very important. 

If you’ve already taken psychedelics and you’re looking to make some changes in your life, go to my page of resources to help with the evolution. 

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What to expect with Entheogens

Shall we call it Psychedelic (psyche: ‘soul,mind’ – deloun: ‘manifest’) just because that’s what others call it? Or shall we call it “entheogenic” (entheo: ‘god within’ – genic: ‘generating’)? It can be both! Regardless of what we call it, these plant extractions and fungi experiences can vary widely from person to person, and the effects depend on various factors such as dosage, setting, mindset, and individual sensitivity. They can be profound, transformative, and sometimes challenging. Some common experiences that people may have with popular psychedelics like mushrooms, LSD, Ayahuasca, and other forms of DMT are as follows:

Ego Dissolution: A sense of losing the boundaries of the self and feeling interconnected with the universe.

Enhanced Creativity: Increased appreciation for art, music, and creative expression.

Emotional Release: Processing of repressed emotions or traumas, leading to emotional catharsis. The memories having been stirred up, it may be disturbing and require further integration of the uncomfortable re-experiencing of the past. This may come in the form of purging, physical purging (vomiting or diarrhea) as a form of energetic cleansing, or burping, crying, yawning, shivering etc. Emotional healing can come from confronting past traumas, and releasing emotional blockages.

Spiritual Insights: Deep spiritual or mystical experiences, connection with higher consciousness, and insights into the nature of reality. Spiritual insight might be in the form of of time Distortion, timelessness, or time loops. Spiritual insight might stem from expanded Awareness, heightened sensory perception, enhanced introspection, and increased self-awareness. Spiritual insights might stem from transcendental Experiences, feeling unity with the universe, encountering divine or cosmic entities, and experiencing ego transcendence. Spiritual insight may come from meeting spirit guides, ancestors, or entities that offer guidance, scary lessons, and/or wisdom. People may experience insightful visions through symbols, or messages related to personal growth and transformation.

Breakthrough Experiences on DMT might create a rapid onset of intense psychedelic effects, often described as entering otherworldly realms or encountering alien beings. One might experience Ego Death, a complete dissolution of the sense of self, leading to unity with the universe or cosmic consciousness.

All of these experiences can be scary and/or liberating. It may also create more questions than answers. You may feel more confused about what is real and what isn’t. This is why people who experience high strangeness may not be able to stop talking about it, and it is disconcerting to those who have not experienced, and cannot understand it. 

What do we “Integrate”

After having experienced profound insights during psychedelic journeys, we can integrate these revelations into our moment-to-moment being. We can be forever changed. Your perspective and therefore your values may shift. But as we go back into our schedule of events and responsibilties, we can also fall right back into our old habits and patterns, because the environment and routines are powerful engines.  The deep truths about ourselves and the nature of reality were revealed, but how do we now change our perspective “sober” and change the way we behave and live? We integrate our newfound perspective and values and transform our lives, day by day, into a whole new world. 

 

The real work begins as we demonstrate our insights into our lives. You may have realized during your experience why you attract the same challenges in your life over and over, but if you do not demonstrate your understanding of the lesson, you will continue to re-live those patterns.  Although a psychedelic experience may improve your  mood for awhile, really deep and lasting spiritual and psychological change can only happen when you do the work. As a dear teacher said to me, the plant shows you the way, but you must walk it. It tells you what you must do, but does not arrange your calendar for you. Therefore, I recommend clearing your schedule for weeks after your (most powerful) psychedelic journeys. so you can allow the new information to settle into place! At the very least, even with less intense psychedelics, its good to reflect often on the insights you received through journaling and conversations with other seekers and contemplatives.

For more resources on how I “integrated” and changed my lifestyle to fit my new set of values, please find resources at ontheweb.shop/Evolve, linked below. Contact me, if you’d like transformative life and/or integration coaching. 

 

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Supporting You

Psychedelic experiences can be deeply transformative but can be so intense they may be traumatic and require a difficult paradigm shift. You will be called to reevaluate beliefs, values, and behaviors. During paradigm shifting experiences. It is vital to have a wise and compassionate support system around you. Find new friends that are more aligned with your new perspective, or find a coach, a therapist, a counselor, or join meetups (or other online groups that eventually have opportunities to meet in person like this FB group) with whom you can talk to about these things without judgment or burnout due to being on a different frequency.

Too many people have recreationally tried LSD, mushrooms, or forms of DMT and have become untethered or haunted by a darkness that is difficult to overcome. Please reach out and join our fellowship of seekers who are using entheogens and various practices to evolve, expand, and ascend. In this age of information, online forums can feel isolating, despite its plethora of supposed resources. What everyone needs is connection and community. Since the insights gained from psychedelic journeys may inspire a desire for lifestyle changes, personal growth, and spiritual development integration support can be valuable in helping individuals process and integrate these experiences into their daily lives, navigate challenges, and make sustainable changes based on the wisdom gained from their psychedelic journeys.

 This page is not for the purpose of business. This is a volunteer service that I feel is necessary because of the renaissance in psychedelic access we are experiencing.  I truly believe that the more people experience unbound consciousness, unconditional love, and deep peace, the better chance we have of creating a future free from war as well as peace within ourselves and our families.

Thanks to Colorado Prop 122 and the legal work that individuals around the world have done! Natural psychedelic substances are now free to use without fear of legal punishment. Mushrooms saved my life. What these entheogens can help you realize can also be realized through proper techniques of meditation and Shaktipat of a guru, but psychedelics must be treated with respect, caution, and reverence as it can be a lot to handle if you’re unprepared. I have listed all the tools I could think of for integration on this blog post to help us evolve.

If you are interested in acquiring psilocybin, please reach out. Other forms of facilitation are available through my network, including synthetic sonoran toad venom, MDMA, Ayahuasca, mushrooms, LSD, and other forms of DMT.

Please join this group to join Tuesday Night online integration circles. In-person integration will begin in September of 2024 in Lakewood, Colorado. Zoom attendance is possible. Please contact for more information about in-person integration circles or to encourage me to get into one-on-one coaching. I have experience changing lifestyle habits dramatically and am confident I can guide somebody in the daily task of editing their life.

Microdosing Psilocybin

What is Microdosing? Microdosing psilocybin involves taking very small, sub-perceptual doses of psilocybin mushrooms, usually around 0.1 to 0.3 grams. I encapsulate mine with lion’s mane (which makes you wakeful and alert and should not be taken at night). Doing my own encapsulations with my own mushroom fruit, I can also mix it with other fillers like magnesium (for relaxing the muscles at night) or turkey tail and/or other functional mushrooms. 

Why Microdose? Microdosing has been reported to improve various mental and cognitive conditions. Scientifically, it has shown promise in helping with:

• Depression: Boosts mood and emotional resilience.
• Anxiety: Reduces feelings of stress and worry.
• OCD: Helps in managing obsessive thoughts and compulsive behaviors.
• Neuroregeneration: May support brain health and slow cognitive decline, potentially benefiting conditions like dementia.

Unlike a full psychedelic experience, microdosing shouldn’t cause changes in consciousness, although it offers benefits over time. One might notice something immediate such as a lifted mood, better concentration, or a decrease in obsessive-compulsive thoughts and behaviors. One might feel dizzy or a funny feeling in the gums if one is sensitive to even a .1 gram dose, but it won’t be unmanageable and psychedelic!  It is of my personal opinion that taking a larger dose of psilocybin (or other sacraments) provides the most immediate and noticeable benefits for improving treatment-resistant depression. However, because microdosing offers a more subtle, long-term approach, many find helpful without the intensity of a full psychedelic experience. 

How to Microdose:

Schedule breaks, and experiment with a schedule that works for you. Psilocybin, like other substances that interact with the serotonin system, can lead to tolerance if used continuously. When tolerance develops, the effectiveness of microdosing diminishes, and higher doses may be required to achieve the same effects. Additionally, breaks allow users to assess the cumulative effects of microdosing and determine if adjustments to the dose or schedule are needed. Some individuals may find that they need less frequent dosing or that they benefit more from longer breaks between microdosing cycles. You can do a 3 day cycle, where you take a microdose 1 day and take a break for 2, or take microdoses for 3 days and take a break for 2. The science isn’t really in on this, so you’ll have to experiment by paying attention to how you feel, how you function, and if the practice is helping you. 

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DMT and Psilocybin in Science

 

These substances have been revered in ceremony and recreation for their profound effects on consciousness. Often they spark spiritual experiences, deep introspection, and mystical insights. While anecdotal and cultural evidence holds some weight, recent scientific research has shown their uses for therapy. 

End-of-Life Care

Psychedelics have shown promise in improving the quality of life for terminally ill patients. Research indicates that psilocybin can help patients confront the fear of death, leading to profound psychological and emotional relief. Patients often report a sense of unity, transcendence, and a redefined perception of their illness, which can result in improved family dynamics and a more meaningful engagement with life during their remaining time. 

Depression and Anxiety

Psilocybin and DMT have demonstrated significant potential in treating depression and anxiety. Clinical trials have shown that these substances can induce rapid and sustained reductions in depressive symptoms. The therapeutic effects are often attributed to the profound psychological experiences and shifts in perception that these substances facilitate. Patients report a greater sense of connection, reduced existential distress, and an overall improvement in mood.

PTSD

For PTSD, psychedelics offer a novel approach by enabling patients to process traumatic memories in a controlled and supportive environment. The altered state of consciousness induced by psilocybin and DMT can help patients reframe their traumatic experiences, leading to lasting psychological healing. This therapeutic potential is particularly valuable given the limitations of traditional PTSD treatments.

Autoimmune Conditions

Emerging research suggests that psychedelics may have anti-inflammatory properties, which could be beneficial for autoimmune conditions. Psilocybin, in particular, has been noted for its potential to modulate immune responses, thereby reducing inflammation and alleviating symptoms associated with autoimmune diseases. While this area of research is still in its infancy, the initial findings are promising and warrant further investigation.

Safety

The therapeutic effects of psychedelics are primarily mediated through their action on serotonin receptors in the brain. Psilocybin and DMT activate the 5-HT2A receptor, leading to changes in brain connectivity and communication. These changes are believed to underlie the profound psychological and behavioral improvements observed in patients. Unlike traditional psychiatric medications, psychedelics often produce lasting benefits after just a few sessions, making them a potentially more efficient treatment option.

While the benefits of psychedelics are compelling, it is crucial to approach their use with caution. Potential risks include psychological distress, acute hypertension, and other adverse effects, particularly in patients with pre-existing conditions such as schizophrenia or severe heart disease. Therefore, psychedelic therapy should be administered with proper screening and support in the proper set and setting to ensure patient safety.

Psychedelics like psilocybin and DMT offer a promising new frontier in the treatment of various conditions, from end-of-life care to mental health disorders and autoimmune diseases. Their ability to induce profound psychological experiences and lasting therapeutic benefits makes them a valuable addition to the current medical landscape. However, further research and careful clinical implementation are essential to fully realize their potential and ensure patient safety. By integrating psychedelics into therapeutic protocols, healthcare providers can offer more holistic and effective care, particularly for patients who have not responded to traditional treatments. As research continues to evolve, the hope is that these substances will become more widely accepted and accessible, providing relief and improved quality of life for many.

References

These sources provide in-depth scientific information and research findings on the therapeutic potential of psychedelics, particularly psilocybin and DMT, in various medical and psychological contexts.

For more information on the topics discussed, please refer to the following sources:

1. Griffiths, R. R., et al. (2016). [Psilocybin produces substantial and sustained decreases in depression and anxiety in patients with life-threatening cancer: A randomized double-blind trial](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5367557/)

2. Carhart-Harris, R. L., et al. (2021). [Trial of Psilocybin versus Escitalopram for Depression](https://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/nejmoa2032994)

3. Davis, A. K., et al. (2020). [Effects of Psilocybin-Assisted Therapy on Major Depressive Disorder: A Randomized Clinical Trial](https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jamapsychiatry/fullarticle/2772630)

4. Nichols, D. E., Johnson, M. W., & Nichols, C. D. (2017). [Psychedelics as Medicines: An Emerging New Paradigm](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5813086/)

5. Flanagan, T. W., & Nichols, C. D. (2018). [Psychedelics as anti-inflammatory agents](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6082376/)

6. Mithoefer, M. C., et al. (2018). [3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine (MDMA)-assisted psychotherapy for post-traumatic stress disorder in military veterans, firefighters, and police officers: a randomised, double-blind, dose-response, phase 2 clinical trial](https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanpsy/article/PIIS2215-0366(18)30135-4/fulltext)

7. Johnson, M. W., et al. (2019). [Classic Psychedelics: An integrative review of epidemiology, therapeutics, mystical experience, and brain network function](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6595987/)

 

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